Hey, Hungary!
Once upon a time James Marsden (see left) went to our high school under the alias of...um...well that's not important. What's really important was that some times he actually TALKED TO ME and I even had the nerve to talk back! And then as time went on, I realized I had developed a sizable crush on him. The only problem was he was way out of my league; and I mean WAY out.
So I kept my silence, always knowing that it would probably never work out for us, but always secretly hoping it could. This, as you well may know, can be very trying on a girl's emotions. Especially when one day he comes into class and says, "I'm so excited for prom!" and of course my best friend and I had to pretend to be happy and excited for him. And even though he asked some girl who was practically four feet shorter than he is and it probably was so awkward for them to dance and he totally should have asked me, I actually was happy for him to be excited to go with this girl (who really is a very lovely person) because he was being really cute about it.
And then more time passed and he went to prom with this lovely girl, and that's not even mentioning her being a sophomore, and that was an end to it. I still liked saying hi to him in the halls and talking sometimes in class. And then one day everything changed.
One day our brother went to his brother's wedding reception. The next morning our brother came and said to me, "So I was talking to [James Marsden] at the reception and he said he thinks you're really funny and had him laughing really hard the other day." My ears perked. I couldn't show too much interest because I hadn't yet told Mother of my crush on him and she was listening in from the kitchen. And then Brother kept talking: "And he said that you're pretty and he might ask you out." WAIT, WHAT?! Controlling my inner freak-out session, I just brushed it off with a smile and half laugh, and as Brother walked away, I slipped into my bedroom to properly freak out. [JAMES MARSDON] might ASK ME OUT?!!! (EEEEK!!!)
After about a day's time, I began to realize that his saying that might be all there was to it. After all, he'd been known to say things like that just to move a conversation along before. But somewhere deep inside I tucked the possibility away just for something to think back on now and again.
The next problem in this situation was that I had told our Monya about him. She subsequently told our Jackie Chan, who is nefarious for being bold enough to just walk up to guys and ask them their views on her friends. I, sadly, was naive enough to think she wouldn't do anything to harmful. Boy, was I wrong. As our Monya and I were watching Phantom the other day, she casually leans over and says, "Oh and by the way, Jackie Chan asked [James Marsden] if he was gonna ask you out and said that you really liked him." Yes. She ACTUALLY spoke those words. To his face. Cue dramatic "Noooo"from inside my head.
So much for my so called best friends. Besides, I'm pretty sure the first rule of high school is not to let your crush know you like them. But it's okay because James quickly took command of the situation (or so I am told) by saying he "really wanted to go out with me"! So that made things a little better. Besides, the more I thought about it, the more I was okay that Jackie Chan told him I liked him, even if I hadn't wanted her to to begin with. Because, why would I care that he knew if it's true? Honesty is the best policy, right? I don't know. We'll see, I guess. And even if this goes no where, (which I'm sure it will) at least we started out with that. So in a way I guess I'm grateful.
But the thing is, Jackie Chan doesn't like to just leave things be. They keep pestering him. Today they asked him if he was going to ask me out and he said, "I just need some time!" which both makes me excited for the possibility again but also made me sad because I feel like they might be pestering him too much although it's just fun and games too them.
I only hope he doesn't think I'm putting them up to the pestering. He might think I'm too aggressive (which if you've read any part of this post you'd see that wasn't true) or that I'm clingy or obsessive or some junk like that. I just want everything to start on a clean slate.
Well, that's it for now. I'll update you again if something actually happens. Sorry I went all boy-crazy school girl on you there. I can be a little dramatic sometimes. But, hey, it's high school.
Talk to you soon,
Love America.
P.S. You know what? I think I changed my mind. Maybe he's not James Marsdon. Maybe he's more of a Sean Faris (below). Or, I don't know. Choose some attractive actor and go with that.
But the thing is, Jackie Chan doesn't like to just leave things be. They keep pestering him. Today they asked him if he was going to ask me out and he said, "I just need some time!" which both makes me excited for the possibility again but also made me sad because I feel like they might be pestering him too much although it's just fun and games too them.
I only hope he doesn't think I'm putting them up to the pestering. He might think I'm too aggressive (which if you've read any part of this post you'd see that wasn't true) or that I'm clingy or obsessive or some junk like that. I just want everything to start on a clean slate.
Well, that's it for now. I'll update you again if something actually happens. Sorry I went all boy-crazy school girl on you there. I can be a little dramatic sometimes. But, hey, it's high school.
Talk to you soon,
Love America.
P.S. You know what? I think I changed my mind. Maybe he's not James Marsdon. Maybe he's more of a Sean Faris (below). Or, I don't know. Choose some attractive actor and go with that.
